As I lay awake, all I’ve repeating in my mind are words you’ve mentioned in th car tht other day aft driving..  “You treat me like a taxi driver!” ,”I know you don’t care about all this!”, “Sometimes I really can’t take in anymore” , “You think I purposly want t  make you angry meh?!”, “Sorry if I always fall short of what you need t be..” & “Why you doing this t me?!” 

 This obviously make me look like I’m th toughest person t be w. I’ve t admit. Never th easiest. I’m well aware of tt. Thank you! But it don’t give you th right t take me lightly.. Why I’m s hard on you , its all because I want you t b th very best. Cause I don’t want t settle w anything lower then th very best. May sound cruel. Shallow and all those crappy words you can find.. WTF right!? So what! 

In th first place if I don’t care, why would i even bother, being all pissed abt things right when it gets wrong or whenever it isn’t what I want it t b.. I treat you like taxi driver?! Oh hell no, you’re th one s willing. And now it’s my fault?! OKAYYY!? If you knw you don’t want me t b pissed and all angsty then why d things I don’t like?! Ain’t that provoking?! And there goes th self pity shit! Oh please every guy will always fall short in a relationship..But its whether he wants t d something abt it or just b contented w always falling short.. So you tell me which is which?!  And lastly.. What th fuck am doing t you exactly!? If I’m just playing ard w you and nt serious abt any of this, I won’t trouble myslf w expectations of a better us. Its cause I love you and wants this t last tt why I’m hard on you.. If you want it all easy then call it quits. Cause then you won’t have t impress anybody bt yrslf.. True!? You call th shot bro.

Done fr th morning.

xx