January 2010
24 posts
No spark.
Nothing at all. Why must comparison take place? Why compare something you once had to something of your possession now. Why use the past as a guidance for the future? Why. I dont want all that. I just want it to be ordinary. With those tiny steps. Not too slowly. Just normal walking speed. Ideal. much.
P.s. If only you knew. Then I would be of ease.
Advanced.
“All I am asking for is a space in your life. Your future. This in which I find you having much trouble giving.”
The thing is whether youre identical to those i know of. Exactly or slightly. I dont want those.Anything related. I dont.I dont want to have to go thru what she had to.
P.s A decended step. I need the gap.
Fondness.
You dont have to pretend that you like me. I’ve had enough cherry to last a lifetime.
P.s I don’t want to anticipate so much.It hurts when you expect something and it just dont happen.
Abort.
It’s a lil buzzard here at my side. Iam super pissed with people around me. Basically. It’s due to having being blame for something you didnt do wrong. Or should I say I didn’t have ill intentions towards. It’s true. You’re the one legally married. & i don’t have any right to intervent. But I think It’s an act of a responsible man to actually accept...
Mouth - less.
I am kinda not happy with certain people. Some are just too immature. Some just too dumb.WTFuck people. I changed my blog cause I want a new start. A fresh one. I kept it quiet for awhile cause I think it’s better people not having to know of it’s existance. Yet. Now. People are touting. The facts I have posted here are for you to know and well. At least get a picture of my daily...
Weddy.
Was rotting in the library earlier on. & so I ended up browsing thru my oldest blog. When I came across this post..
I can’t even remember he said this lorh. I can’t believe my eyes.Really. This was when we’ re like having our sweet but not-so-legal affair. It was really under covers if that’s how I am recalling it now. Cause he’s my blood cousin. Daddy’s...
Appreciation Night.
Dinner and Dance. Police Coast Guard’s Night. Rating it 3 out of 5.Compared to the past ones this yr’s stands no close to 5. At all. But being active and participative really do bring you somewhere you see. Me using a vintage top with highwaist pants plus heels.Beat that. I stand wayyhigher than some guys there itself.Woohoo. I like. There’s some people i saw. One my ex bf who is...
Daniel Powter.
Today was filled with him. I think. Serious. His album was preety much on replay. Nice. I like his songs so much. Cause some I could really relate with. Sweet! Spend 3forth of the day at home. Slacking. Listening to covers. & reading. Had a call for a trip out to cycle with Matty. Awesome. We cycle practically all the way to kembangan. As planned. Bathed at Timmy’s place. Had delivered...
Not everything goes as you please,yknw?!
There’s things in mind that i want to say. But i don’t want to hurt some people by saying it. Really. Sigh. Today was a complete waste of time. I think. Headed down to school for Musical stuff at about 11am. I was one of the dressers. We started everything at 2pm.
The thing i do most i think is slacking. Serious. Had some things in mind after what chersy asked me. I was...
Cramps.
Had SFTENG presentation today.Was please with the outcome.One down two more to go.Sigh. Seriously.When is this all going to end. Ermm. Got a super headache plus leg cramps. Ouchh!!
P.s. kinda lost my touch.
I dont want to let go,.
Midnight oil.
Here I am stuck with tying the loose ends of my reports. Really annoying. Cause I am kinda lost with the details plus descriptions to all this. Sigh. But I think I’ll manage. While thinking of what to write for the report, I came across this..
“To love is to destroy, loving is also the cause of creation
“ Heading out soon. With Matty and gang. Poof! Planned Destination :...
Short.
Today was really normal.Can’t judge much cause i started class late. Was preety busy with my new lappy. Rather foreign. Was really looking forward to end. Movie. Watch Avatar. Again. Yes. This time round it’s 3D. & with this boy. My cyclops. HAHAHA!
P.s. with you clearing the uncertainties, really left me relief. THANKS leelan. So far you’re the best. We ought to take a...
Blues.
Monday. Ohh god. What a drag…
As i walk myself home today. I got myself thinking. On how good it feels to have a guy who is willing to do almost anything to simply please you,. Sacrifice almost anything. That is. His time. His love. Ohh I wonder sometimes on how fortunate some girls are. Yet they don’t see it that way. But some guys tend to show it differently. Which to me , having...
Remembrance.
My initial thoughts for this post is like for the chalet part. But somehow I don’t want talk about it. Cause there’s other things in my mind that I wish to say here. I am missing someone. Not literally. Just that I ve been thinking of this particular someone who I am not supposed to think about lately.Ermm more of it all starts after saturday. The closeness was nice. It brings me back...
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Last Day.
Like Finally. Today is the last day for open house. Which was great?! Was really boring though. Sitting at the booth. Waiting for peeps to come by and ask questions about what blablabla…
SJ was there to accompany me though. :D You see what he did to my straw. Errmm. && Let me tell you, it ain’t easy to sip thru that blady straw ok?! It’s preety difficult. Shakeheads....
One year older day for Luqqy.
:D Luqqy’s finally 20 seyy. HAHA.
Don’t know why but he always have trouble buying ciggy or even alcoholic beverages without his ID. Wtfishh people. He’s blady 20 luhh can. Some people are just too much. Just because they are the one standing behind those counters, which happen to be in charge. && Still can check my ID like as if It’s fake or...
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It's open house time!
OMFG!! Nyp was so crowded with all those unwanted fag. I can’t believe all these people wants to be in nyp. It suck yknow. Whatever. HAHA! Spend the day with Sufei love and Kusuma love. Practically just standing at the booth chitchating. Joe was such an ass when he came over and start shoving the mic. at us. As so we could explain what the booth was about. :D Wtfishh Joe. So uncalled for...
Sunshine.
When sun-bathing today. Believe it or not. I went alone. Haha. Sweet!. people won’t beelieve this fact though. I happen to enjoy it. The time alone with no disturbance. Total Greatness. I was way darker then before. && this fact, I am the only one which happen to notice. Damn! Roll eyes. Had early dinner with Jk. LJS. miss it like super much lorh.. HAHA! Then off to Timmy’s...
Previous.
The last two post are copy-and-paste from my old wordpress. The only reason I shifted those two cause it happen in january itself. I know there were 3 post that happened to be posted after new year Actually was hesitant for awhile. Couln’t decide whether or not to add the 3rd one. But just so you know. I didn’t. Couldn’t bring all those bad issues into this new one. I wish I...
The First Second.
The first of seconds. And all I feel is boredom. Believe it or not. Weird uhh. Webcamming can really make me go crazy. The proof is on top. Awake doing my report at these late hours of the night. && I had to set my mind on something else. Cause I can’t stop thinking. School starting in 1 day’s time and I dont like it. How like that?! Wtfishh. All I am wishing for now is the end of year...
The New beginning needs a New Start.
The year didn’t start well much. Was rather in a depressing mood to start with. Having to know what (Dr) feels. His honest feeling. From the start. Till the end. Thanks to the drinks he had for countdown. We all had a fair share of tell-offs. Shit happens. Seriously. You won’t want be there if you had done some major stuff to (Dr). Cause all secrets are told. Especially the ones he have been...